I don't know why God had us meet 

I just know why I want it to be 

I can't be sure I'll ever get to be 

your good luck charm 

but even when I'm what's risky 

I try to keep you from harm 

I'm not dressing these words up much 

Just confessing I'm moved and I'm touched 

Every moment of attention you show me 

eases a world of pain 

Even the pain we dished out to one another 

when my unpredictable seasons 

tested the limits of your summer swagger 

If I'd known it was something 

that meant you couldn't be friends with me 

when you told me your name I would have said 

"Doesn't matter, I'm elderly" 

but when 35 years yanked your illusions away 

and shot you straight through your soul 

you forget people don't already know 

"This one hides" I thought of you then 

"This one expects others to hide for him" 

"Expects others to help him hide" 

While you were misreading my body language 

I was incorrectly assuming your type 

even though I was hiding too 

right in the middle of everyone 

Hell, I'd feign brave with anyone 

Pretending to be the man with all the right politics 

and not a man fresh out of tricks 

If you failed to acknowledge me 

I resolved to rile up some unreason 

If you didn't make mention that I exist too 

I balled up all my belligerence 

Let it rip with no regard for witnesses 

Got so verbose your messages overflowed 

and now I'm mad 'cos everyone knows 

that I'm far too fucked up 

to love anyone who isn't nuts 

Which they'd have to be to ride with me 

even though I pay for everything 

Wiled out in so many ways I shouldn't have 

Investigated every impulse I shouldn't have 

'til it was no wonder I couldn't 

ward off panic attacks 

Head hung between my knees

breathing into a paper bag 

Which didn't for a moment disrupt 

your free flowing humblebrag 

There's only one reason I should find you out 

I don't know what it is yet, so I hope I find you home

I just know it exists, because your spirit 

stays all summer even after you go ghost 

I need some hows narrowed down

Need to rule out some whys 

Not that I still give a fuck except that 

when I care, that shit's for life 

and outrage is no antidote, I remind myself 

too late all the time 

So shake my hand, hug me goodbye, 

say "hello, bro" or "go" 

Offer explanation or act easily scared 

Haul off and hit me with your fist 

or that blue-green glare 

that makes me want to grab you by the throat 

Show you who I am and 

why you better take note 

If I gotta, I'll get in your face 

to attain some fucking grace 

To get us to where we both 

have enough info to know 

if everyone you are is really done with all of me 

There's lessons still to learn is all 

There are still some ways to bleed